(why are all of my parties of the sad/bad type lately??)

The list is up… and my name is not on it. Yep. I’m totally bummed. Completely bummed. I had a good cry. It’s hard. It’s so hard to keep putting yourself out there (design team tryouts, magazine submissions, contest entries, etc.) and keep getting knocked down. I asked Wade tonight, “When does ‘when at first you don’t succeed, try, try again’ turn into ‘Quit banging your head against a brick wall’??” I’m walking this thin line, I think. I have many AMAZING friends and family members who support me and give me much encouragement. I am so grateful for them. I am certain that without them, I would have quit a long time ago. I also know that most of this vent is coming from pure raw emotion. And I know that time helps. But this one is going to hurt for a while.

So…while I was waiting for the list to come up, I did finish a layout today. I’ve been working on it for way too long. It was supposed to be done three weeks ago for our journaling challenge. Oh well…better late than never. And I do love these pics…